My inability to hate you
Is the biggest detriment in my adult life.
I was young and inexperienced,
Putty in your hands,
Moldable and folding myself over and over again
Until there was almost nothing left.
I want to sever the insatiable connection to you,
Because it still hurts that you didn’t feel it too.
Losing you damn near killed me.
I thought I knew what love was,
But you said I didn’t.
You were wrong; I knew everything.
I am currently rewriting a novel called Jordan’s Sister, which isabout a singer/songwriter named Taylor who is trying to break free from her past and step out of the shadow of her sister’s fame while getting to know a former child singer, Layne (male). I have been thinking a lot about music and songs in general while I have been writing my draft for this story. Layne’s song was fun to write. If only I could sing, I could let you all know what it sounds like in my head.
I think of my character Taylor as a singer who sounds like strong female singers like Avril Lavigne and Christina Perri. I think of Layne as a singer who sounds like Edwin McCain and Jason Wade of Lifehouse. While I am thinking about my characters, I am also thinking about what their favorite songs might be and why. According to US Copyright law, song titles are not protected by copyright, so I can reference songs in my writing as long as I don’t mention the specific lyrics. This is so valuable because songs can convey so much by making you think and feel and be transported back to another time in your life. Taylor’s favorite song is “Jar of Hearts” and Layne’s is “I’ll Be” which are listed below in my top 10.
I have thought about writing this post for the past few weeks, narrowing down a list of my top 10 favorite songs and why. For someone who loves music as much as I do, it was extremely difficult to keep the list at 10, which is why I also have 15 honorable mentions. My top 10 favorites are in order, and had to meet my requirements of being recorded by the artist or artists who wrote the song. All of these songs are on my Spotify playlist of what I consider great songs, which currently contains 138 songs (9 hours, 42 minutes worth of music) that I consider amazing performances and excellent songwriting. I have a separate list for Guilty Pleasures that contains songs that I like, but don’t necessarily consider amazing songwriting, an example would be “Call Me Maybe” by Carly Rae Jepsen. I really like the song because it’s fun and catchy, but it isn’t what I consider great like another of her songs “Tug of War” which didn’t quite make the cut on the top 25 included in my favorites and honorable mentions.
I made another list for songs that were popular during 1996 when the main storyline is taking place in Caroline’s Lighthouse. Listening to that playlist while I wrote helped me time-travel back to feeling 15 again when all of my emotions matched those of Caroline. I appreciate how music can do that. You want to know how one character feels about Caroline? Listen to “Hold On” by Jamie Walters and you’ll know. How does Caroline feel about her life in general? Listen to “I Shall Believe” by Sheryl Crow.