My first publication and also my first time writing from a male point of view. I wrote this short story when I was in college for a Fiction Workshop. I made a lot of revisions based on feedback from my classmates, who thought it was confusing at first.
One classmate didn’t think so.
I submitted my final draft (my third) for consideration in New Mexico Highland University’s student edited Sendero Literary Journal my last semester in college, which was spring 2003.
Her jeans are on the floor where she left them, one leg inside out. The dark red curtains are closed because she changed here yesterday. It’s better that the sun can’t shine in today. I don’t want to look at the light. The house is too quiet. All I hear is the dress bag on the closet door moving in time with the fan. The broom falls at my feet as I sit on our bed. Lanie had put it there. I don’t have to look. I know her sneakers are under the bed. At night she would take her shoes off beside the bed and I would push them underneath before morning. I couldn’t convince her that our new house was haunted. She was too intelligent, or might have seen me push them under the bed after I thought she was asleep. She looked so cute raking her shoes out with the broom handle.
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I remember when we first met in college. I was a senior and Lanie was a freshman. She got a job in the wildlife department where I worked. I noticed her right away. She was adorable-long red hair, green eyes. She was dressed like a little girl in her jean short-alls and sneakers with her hair in a ponytail. She looked so small, her body, the features on her face. Her breasts were a nice size.
“Hi,” She said as she approached the front desk. “The people at the student services office told me to come here to work. I’m Lanie.”
“You’re in the right place,” I said. “I’m Wes. Someday I’ll own this place.”
“So I should probably be nice to you.”
“Where do I go?” she asked, slinging her backpack on to the desk.
“Follow me,” I said, and began a tour of the department.
Lanie was there for the same reason I was. She wanted to study animal habits, protect the environment and most of all protect endangered species. We began talking after the Wildlife Club meetings. I liked spending time with her, so I called her up Labor Day weekend with the number she had left on the club sign up sheet.
I had big plans to go to Scotland to study for a year so a relationship was the last thing I needed since I would be leaving so soon, but something about Lanie made me want to spend time with her. Other women I’d dated would never speak to me the way she did. I thought she and I could be friends, but things got serious. Before I could stop myself, I’d kissed her, held her, made love to her. I was in love with her. That meant missing her while away, thinking about her all the time. It was a bad time for that.