• Essays,  General Thoughts

    When I grow up

    When you were a kid, what did you want to be when you grew up? I think my first answer to that question was a mommy. I would play with my dolls and pretend I was their mommy. I would change their clothes, pack a diaper bag, and have my dolls ride in a toy car seat buckled into the car. Basically, I would imitate how my mother took care of my baby sister. Next, I wanted to be a teacher. I used to play school with my stuffed animals all the time. Looking back, I find this ironic because there were times when I hated school. I felt lonely…

  • Novels,  Poetry

    Love me more (Taylor’s Song)

    This is Taylor’s song from my current novel-in-progress, Jordan’s Sister. The sound I have in mind for it is reminiscent of 90s Pop because the entire music scene of the 90s is something that my character, Taylor, gravitates toward because she grew up listening to it. It’s a love song with intentionally ambiguous lyrics. I’ve mentioned before that most songs are about love, sex or drugs. “Love me more” If you could love me more I think I’d run away I never thought that I would feel this way—again But I never want to leave this place I think so every time I see your face—I do I do I do— Baby,…

  • Novels,  Poetry

    Waiting for you: Layne’s Song for Jordan’s Sister

    “Waiting for you” 2016, written for novel rewrite in progress, Jordan’s Sister There’s more beauty in you Than could ever be true I’ve spent all of my life Waiting for you You push me away While I beg you to stay I’m new to this place And I won’t be the same I’ll take all your pain And lock it away If I don’t kiss your lips I might go insane There’s more beauty in you Than could ever be true I’ve spent all of my life Waiting for you You won’t let me in And I know you’re scared But if you’ll let down your guards I’ll show you I…